My Why

I've always loved being around children. I always enjoyed caring for my little sister, then nannying for families through middle school and high school, and continuing throughout my career as a teacher. But I also knew that I would want a family of my own one day.

It takes two to tango, so when the time came to get married, I made sure I picked the "cream of the crop."  Seth's everything I want in my husband--he's funny, handsome, thoughtful, hard-working, and we quite enjoy our relationship together.  After finishing our last 2 years of undergrad at BYU (as married students), we moved to Texas so that Seth could attend law school.  While he studied all day (and sometimes nights), I began full-time teaching as an elementary school teacher.  While one would think that being a teacher is nature's way of birth control, we stayed constant in my desire to have children of our own.

The whole process was certainly full of ups and downs. I had many friends in Texas who were starting their own family (as well as many friends and cousins who were also experiencing the blessing of children), so I was constantly reminded of how beautiful and precious children can be. After trying unsuccessfully for about a year and half  we decided to learn more about the cause. Several doctor's visits and various tests revealed to us that it would be impossible for us to conceive naturally.

While it hasn't always been easy, I've managed to find peace in sharing my journey. It's comforting knowing that I'm not the only one in this situation--and of course I'm happy for my friends and family who have been able to successfully become parents naturally--but this is a difficult process and I've taken great comfort from the words and support and love from those who've gone through this before me. With that in mind, I hope to be able to share my experiences and feelings so that I can maybe uplift and encourage those who are (or will be) going through this same journey.  I'm lucky because I've kept notes throughout the years in my journal so my memories can hopefully turn into memorable and meaningful guidance and support. This blog is something I've always thought of doing, but after some nudging from several friends, and knowing how hard infertility is (and how surprisingly common it is for couples), I've decided to share with you all about my experience with infertility.

I hope that you can similarly find peace and comfort in your journey.  Of course, if you have any questions, I will gladly answer them.  Though each journey to eventually having a baby is different, my hope is that we can create and foster an environment of understanding and love for all those going through the same struggles.